30 confessions

1. I love iced nonfat caramel macciatos so much I could almost rationalize spending $3.50 each day on one.
2. I like being a girl.
3. Point of Grace (the band) scares me
4. Before all the hype with all the movies, my favorite superhero was and still is Spider Man.
5. My top three (okay... 5) movies are Good Will Hunting, About Schmidt, and a tie between Garden State & Butterfly Effect and LOR trilogy
6. If I could choose any era to live in (other than today), I'd pick the reformation era.
7. I would love to have a big family...maybe 9 kids...that way no one is spoiled...including me :)
8. I hate cheese
9. One band for the rest of my life?... it would be Caedmon's Call/Derek Webb
10. I love mountains...If I had my way, I'd move to Washington or Colorado for the rest of my life.
11. I love hugs & kisses
12. Quality time is the best way to love me
13. I could eat a hambuger & fries every day...I just don't because its not good for me.
14. Out side of Scripture, Holy the Firm by Annie Dillard is the best book/novel ever- it absolutely changed my life
15. Calvinist through & through
16. Green is so beautiful
17. I am ready & wating for heaven, in all honesty.
18. The rest are soon to come.... Ohhh- I know how to keep you in suspense! :)

emotional music

There is something about Caedmon's Call's song "Only One-Holy One" that makes me feel heaven. Its like I put that song in and I feel immediatly brought back to the concert where I heard it performed for the first time. They made a light show/display match the emotions/words in the song as they played- The light would pulse when they played music that pulsed- and the music pulsed just as the words talk about that longing for heaven- like an inevitable bliss that is here, but not yet fully realized. When they move from earthly perspective to heavenly perspective the light begins looking down on the floor -showing all over the floor-and then all of a sudden it comes up and flashes the audience in bright light, blinding, pure white light and finally points straight up sending light everywhere on the ceiling- which spreads light all over the room. It took a lot to hold back the tears. HOW DO THEY DO IT? It is almost as if their very music is so intentional that it plays on the deep theology in every word, chord, beat and strum- it all matches. The emotions are so appropriate.

I like to drive in to work listening to Chris Tomlin- I'm not a big fan of all the new "worship waves" but Chris Tomlin has a quality about him. As I fly at 35 miles per hour on the glistening lake front of Chicago's part of Lake Michigan, I often find its the best part of my day. Its on my journey to work that I am most grabbed at how much I need Jesus- as my body wakes up, my wicked heart wakes up with it. I wish I could just let that part of me sleep in- permanently. There are some days when I know I wake it up on purpose- somedays I even shake it awake asking it to come play with my depraved mind. So these morning drives, I find are important to me-

To the left of me as I drive in are mammoth sized buildings to my right and and a crystal sea to my right. I like looking to the right much better- His mightly fingerprints are all over it- oh, Draw me Lord.